Father Figures, Forgiveness & Mental Health Recovery
by WHYY & OC87 Recovery Diaries

Levi Lee & Jaywan Sheppard
Levi Lee is a mental health therapist whose area of expertise is in working with young people. “I entered the field because I wanted to help my community — especially the youth,” he says. Levi feels that the voices of young black men in his community are often misunderstood. “Others see the wounded individual. They see the behaviors: poor decisions, wrong choices. What I see is a little soul trapped in a box, a soul that needs an opportunity to tell their story.”
One of the people Levi is supporting is Jaywan Sheppard, a 15-year-old who wrestles with anger issues. While Jaywan is navigating the challenges that face all teenagers, he has additional emotional problems that stem from the fact that his father is absent from his life.
“I have extreme anger problems,” Jaywan explains. “When my anger is triggered, I feel like a grenade about to explode. Often times I feel trapped in a box. Two people make one, right? So why is one raising me?”
When Levi heard about the WHYY/Recovery Diaries first time filmmaking workshop, he was intrigued. Levi (correctly) suspected that the video project might be fun for a 15-year-old, while having positive therapeutic outcomes as well.
Both Levi and Jaywan have grown up in a video generation. They love sound and images, and had a great adventure filming. They quickly gathered a good deal of footage and had a hard drive filled with compelling imagery. However, fine tuning the story in post production was tricky.
Should the video be about Jaywan’s relationship with his dad? Should it be about Jaywan’s deep anger connected to his father’s absence in his life? Is it about the relationship between a therapist and a young client?
In the end, they decided to blend their stories, and created a sensitive and touching video that tells the personal stories behind this professional relationship.

Jaywan Sheppard & Levi Lee
Their film explores a shared experience in life – both Levi and Jaywan wrestle with the loss of a father figure. They were brought closer by the experience, and, in the course of making the film, each has made steps towards a more positive relationship (physically or emotionally) with the missing man in his life.
This film is part of an ongoing series created by OC87 Recovery Diaries and Philadelphia public television station WHYY. The organizations teamed up with first-time filmmakers from area mental health and wellness organizations to create original, short films that detail journeys of recovery and transformation. First-time filmmakers are in charge of shooting, editing and structuring their video, with support and guidance from experienced producers.
Please watch the video and the interview with Levi and Jaywan, to hear about their experience in the filmmaking workshop.
Levi works for The Consortium, a non-profit community mental health center based in Philadelphia, PA.
EDITOR IN CHIEF: Bud Clayman | EDITOR: Glenn Holsten | DESIGN: Leah Alexandra Goldstein
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